and sometimes you just wanna crash

because sometimes you stand up for the people,
and the judge shoots you down.
and sometimes you make bail applications and
sometimes people are released and
you feel like you failed
sometimes defense counsel makes crazy motions
and you actually have a solid basis to oppose them
and thats when the judge denies their motion
so you celebrate, and your colleagues say, good job.
but celebrations are short lived
because the next case is called and
you can't serve notices, because your information is confusing
and sometimes people in the courtoom cry
and you wonder, what's going to happen when they leave here?
but then you try to talk to a colleague and they say,
"You did your best"
but what's best when you represent the People of the state of New York?
what's best, what's best, WHAT IS BEST???
you worry that you aren't smart enough for other people's safety to be based on your ability to make arguments straigh off the dome to the judge in less than 10 minutes.

so sometimes when you get home on a Friday, from a long week.

YOU JUST CRASH.